Adjusting to Divorce

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Tanya is living alone for the first time in her life.  She moved from her parent’s house, to a college dorm, and then in with her boyfriend who eventually became her husband, and that last one lasted a long, long time.   And then…it ended.  Tanya separated from her husband last month and has started meeting with a lawyer to begin divorce proceedings.  She reliably reports on any given day that the decision to end her marriage was the most difficult one that she’s ever had to make, both because of the termination of the relationship and all the implications for doing so. She’s experiencing so many emotions — sadness, fear, pride, shame.  But more than anything, Tanya is lonely.  Coming home to a quiet, 1-bedroom apartment rather than the stately old home she and her husband occupied together is surreal — she keeps feeling like she’s on a trip out of town and staying at someone els’es place.  But it’s hers.  What should she do?  Where does she look to, dare she think it, begin her life again?

After being married for two years, Mike and Bobbie have decided to get a divorce. They got married right after college and realized shortly thereafter that marriage wasn’t what they wanted it to be.  They were certain they had issues in their relationship, ones they’d hoped would improve in marriage.  But as with most couples, the pressures and commitment of marriage seemed only to make them worse.  Since the whole divorce idea was mutual, there was no high conflict or territorial clinging — just sadness.  Lots and lots of sadness.

Althea recently discovered that her husband of fifteen years was cheating.  She’d been blissfully happy and hopelessly devoted right up until the day she knew.  She told friends the whole thing left her with a gaping wound, like a canon ball from had shot right through her mid-section and left a circular hole from a Wile E. Coyote cartoon.  After learning more of the details, her friends were increasingly of the opinion that she ought to be really, really mad for how her husband had carried on behind her back.  But Althea didn’t want any of that — she’d honestly loved her husband even if he failed her at the end, and being mad, though perhaps part of the journey, was something she reasoned that looked better in movies than it did in real life.  She just wanted to grieve, and to find a way to recover from her shell-shock.

counseling for divorce st louisWill had known that the resentment he’d been building toward his wife for nearly twenty years was more than he was willing to deal with, and maybe more than he was able, when he finally decided he wanted a divorce.  When he discussed this with the therapist he and his wife were seeing, the therapist could tell he meant business, and expressed compassion and understanding.  When they began to discuss arrangements, Will brought up a tough subject — the older kids would be okay, but what about his and his wife’s twin boys — Rod and Sean, age 14?  The therapist told him, gently but frankly, what the research says: “Divorce is always negative for children, particularly when the children are sixteen years-old or younger, in which case divorce is associated with an increase in risk-behaviors like smoking, drinking underage, and drug use.  It’s not good.”  Now, some fourteen months later, Will is discovering that the research didn’t lie.  His twins are not doing well.

Divorce is Principally About Loss

Whether you were married for two or forty-two years, divorce is life changing and even in the best of circumstances, traumatic to one degree or another.  Many people never imagine that their marriages will end, but even those that have considered the possibility find that it is something they wouldn’t report on their worst enemies.  What’s more, even when divorce is something you initiated or brings the welcome end to a long period of conflict or abuse, you will still feel a sense of loss, even a profound one, and may even question whether you made the right decision.  There’s really no way around it — divorce is loss.  And your loss in this as every bit as a real as a physical loss when someone dies — and thus, to remember that it is totally and completely appropriate to have a mourning period. 

st louis divorce counselingElizabeth Kübler-Ross’s Stages of Grief are Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance.  These don’t typically occur in a predictable, straight line — for example, you don’t feel one, then the next, then the next.  Instead, you tend to feel them over and over again in waves, and in fact, you may experience all 5 on a single day!  Think of your grief has occurring in concentric circles.  The idea is that while you will circle through all of them rather continuously, at any given point, one may tend to stand out to you.  In time and with help, the intensity of the waves and circles will die down, and you will eventually find yourself in touch with Acceptance more often than not.

Divorce is About Loss For Others Too

You, your spouse, and your family members and friends — all of them will experience the loss of your divorce to one degree or another.  One of the most difficult parts of divorce is needing so much care and TLC yourself, but also recognizing that your friends and family members — even your children who are still young and under your charge — need the same.  The key component here is to remember that your needs and those of the persons around you may exceed your resources.  For example, you may need lots of friend support and a safe place to talk, but your friends are themselves feeling hurt and confused and trying to decide how to show loyalty to both you and your husband.  Or, for another example, your children may feel confused, hurt, and genuinely frightened at the prospect of your ex-spouse not being in the home any more, but you may not have the emotional energy necessary to help them through.

Divorce is Also About Re-Discovery

Once you have allowed yourself to mourn the loss of your marriage and to deal with the practical and logistical transitional realities, you can start to transition to a phase of healing.  (NOTE: That statement may be too much for some of you to read.  You’re just not there yet.  That’s okay!!!  Skip ahead to the “healing” section below.)

Like all life transitions, post-divorce adjustment requires growth and the ability to find yourself again, to adapt and find a rhythm and way of being that works for you.  The good news is that growth can take many different forms — you may:

  • Reconnect with old lovers
  • Catch up with old friends who you didn’t have time to invest in while married
  • Rediscover aspects of yourself that became less pronounced in your marriage
  • Explore untapped dreams or interests that seemed too difficult to pursue in your marriage

These things won’t come quickly, but once they do, you may find that they’re easier than you think.  Many people find a renewed sense of strength and resiliency, often informed by their belief that the divorce was the best decision they could’ve made for themselves.

adjusting to divorce st louisDivorce is About New Discoveries Too

Divorce is certainly a time of rediscovering things you’d lost or forgotten, but it is also a new beginning where completely new and fresh insights that took route before the divorce and during its process eventually flower.  It is the literally beginning of a new chapter in life, or even a new book!  Choice is a rather momentous component that is difficult to understate at this phase. For the first time in a long time, or the first time ever, you have the power and the capacity to fill this new book with the people, places, and things you want.  

Some ways to heal after a divorce:

  • Allow yourself time to grieve and honor what you are feeling.  The idea that you are hurting like you are is a testament to the long, hard fought battle in (and usually, for) your relationship.  You can’t have that kind of battle without some fallout once it’s over.  We know this about veterans who come home from war.  Even if it seems dramatic, think of yourself in the same way. 
  • Surround yourself with the support of friends and family, but…remember that their job is to love you fiercely, and they often do so with a lot of passion and prejudice.  This means that sometimes their support will be just what the doctor ordered.  And other times, their support may end up feeling a bit more like what they need than what you do.  For example, your friends may tell you that you should burn your ex’s belongings, that you should go out and have sex with someone, that you should take a vacation, etc.  They’ll mean well, but a lot of times they just want you not to hurt.  A big part of healing from divorce is finding a place where hurting is okay — a place within yourself, and a physical place.  Therapy can be a great start.
  • Take it as it comes.  The really annoying thing (okay, one of many) about divorce recovery is that we want it to occur on a nice, neat, and predictable path.  But recovery, and all of the stages thereof, come in waves.  Some days we’ll think we’re doing fine and other days we’ll curl up in a fetal position and bawl our eyes out.  Either way, whatever happens today is just what ought to happen.  Being expectation-free and compassionate with yourself is enormously productive (including being kind to yourself when you discover that you do have expectations and aren’t so compassionate!).
  • Some days, practical matters will just have to be enough.  The sheer volume of things to do when it comes to divorce — court appearances, attorney meetings, will renegotiation, retirement and investment divvying up, insurance, etc.  — can be totally overwhelming.  It’s okay if some days, just tending to those things is all you can do.  And it’s also okay if, some days, you can’t do that either.
  • Begin reconnection.  In time, it will serve you well to reconnect with yourself as an individual, and especially before you start another relationship.  Well-meaning family and friends will often rush us into them, or perhaps, we’ll rush ourselves.  But Rome wasn’t built in a day, and we need time to get our sea-legs, often even for casual sex or innocent flirtyness — these things take more out of us than we realize they will.
  • Consider various support possibilities for you and your loved ones.  A great resource for kids in the St. Louis area is called Kids in the Middle, and it is exclusively for children going through divorce.  You can consider therapy at Change, Inc. or elsewhere, or maybe a divorce recovery group.
  • Give yourself time.  And find someone who can remind you of that necessity.  Going through divorce recovery isn’t at all unlike recovering from the death of a family member or friend — there are no “rules” about length or required “move on” time.  It takes what it takes.  So don’t be surprised if, after 6 months, or 12, or 18, you might not be as far along as you want.  You might need someone to wrap their arm around your shoulder and remind you, gently and kindly, “Hey, friend.  Remember — a year and a half ago you were still married!  Take it easy!”

Many times, these are difficult to execute on your own.  Need some guidance?  We can help!

Our therapists aren’t just expert counselors – they’re agents of change!  They can help you move through your period of mourning day by day, one step at a time.  Together, you can learn to experience life as new and exciting and open to possibility!

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